Saturday, April 30, 2011
theblindcansee
If I was the first thing a blind person saw....they would be disappointed. Like when you see a nerd without braces, or a sentencewithoutspaces
Monday, April 25, 2011
1 AM and One I AM
SO, it's 1am as you may have guessed. And, I'm just in a weird mood. Two days ago I was locked in a bathroom with 2 then 3 of my coworkers because of a tornado warning. It was suppose to rip right through town, but ended up passing over us. Well, as my family heard about this they started praying for me, and getting our friends to pray as well. Well, I start getting all these "I love you" texts as if I was going to die. To be completely honest, I was bored, so I sent out a few of them...I know I'm a dork. Most of my friends were just saying things like "your not gonna die" or "you'll be fine" which I would, but like I said, I was bored. A few of them said they were praying for me, which is always encouraging. But fewer still, had the mindset that IF I really wasn't going to be ok, they wanted to tell me they loved me.
This really got me thinking (which is never good.) What if I had died that day? What if all the things I'd hoped for, and waited for, and longed for never came true? What if I only lived to 23? What IF Friday April 22 was my last day on this earth? What would I have missed out on? What are all the things I always wanted to do but didn't? What did I do this year that means something, or means ANYTHING? What are the things I did but wish I hadn't? What do I wish I could just ONE MORE TIME?
I know what you're thinking, and It seems so depressing and emo or whatever, but hey? You never know.
So as I sit here, now 1:10 AM I wonder...have I told everyone I loved them? Have I adequately shown Christ to the world? Am I satisfied with my life? Is Psychology really what I want to do? Will I die alone?
I can't answer these questions...well at least not all of them. I know God will never leave me, and so in that sense I will not ever be truly alone, but that doesn't mean I'll never be lonely. But how do you know? How do you know if you are truly following God's will for your life?
All of this just to say, I don't know what I want with my life ...... except I want to follow God. But how in this world of noise and confusion can I truly know what HE wants me to do?
So I end with this: I am but one man, who knows not what he should do. But I know the I AM, and I'll follow HIM till my life is through.
Goodnight.
This really got me thinking (which is never good.) What if I had died that day? What if all the things I'd hoped for, and waited for, and longed for never came true? What if I only lived to 23? What IF Friday April 22 was my last day on this earth? What would I have missed out on? What are all the things I always wanted to do but didn't? What did I do this year that means something, or means ANYTHING? What are the things I did but wish I hadn't? What do I wish I could just ONE MORE TIME?
I know what you're thinking, and It seems so depressing and emo or whatever, but hey? You never know.
So as I sit here, now 1:10 AM I wonder...have I told everyone I loved them? Have I adequately shown Christ to the world? Am I satisfied with my life? Is Psychology really what I want to do? Will I die alone?
I can't answer these questions...well at least not all of them. I know God will never leave me, and so in that sense I will not ever be truly alone, but that doesn't mean I'll never be lonely. But how do you know? How do you know if you are truly following God's will for your life?
All of this just to say, I don't know what I want with my life ...... except I want to follow God. But how in this world of noise and confusion can I truly know what HE wants me to do?
So I end with this: I am but one man, who knows not what he should do. But I know the I AM, and I'll follow HIM till my life is through.
Goodnight.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Wanted!
Have you ever heard the term, "Everyone wants to be wanted"?
I would say that, it depends on the situation. If you're in a room full of people waiting to be interrogated or tortured even...do you really want to be wanted then?
What if you are a wanted criminal? Does it lose a sense of nostalgia when they only want you to put you in jail?
I realize that it is referring to be wanted by another person like a girlfriend or boyfriend, and I understand that, but maybe we should be more specific? Maybe that's why the English language as a whole is a joke. Maybe we should instead say, "Everyone wants to be wanted by someone the want to be wanted by." Somehow I think that phrase loses it's sense of simple intrigue, but at least it's honest.
As for me, I can honestly say that I want to be wanted by someone that I want to want me. But, as for now, No one wants me. I'm always a good friend or someone to hang out with as a last resort, but No one wants to date me, or spend personal, quality time, to get to know me. No one wants to want me.
I would say that, it depends on the situation. If you're in a room full of people waiting to be interrogated or tortured even...do you really want to be wanted then?
What if you are a wanted criminal? Does it lose a sense of nostalgia when they only want you to put you in jail?
I realize that it is referring to be wanted by another person like a girlfriend or boyfriend, and I understand that, but maybe we should be more specific? Maybe that's why the English language as a whole is a joke. Maybe we should instead say, "Everyone wants to be wanted by someone the want to be wanted by." Somehow I think that phrase loses it's sense of simple intrigue, but at least it's honest.
As for me, I can honestly say that I want to be wanted by someone that I want to want me. But, as for now, No one wants me. I'm always a good friend or someone to hang out with as a last resort, but No one wants to date me, or spend personal, quality time, to get to know me. No one wants to want me.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
New Blog
So I made this blog as a way of putting my thoughts to paper....well at least putting them on the internet. Transient is defined as:
°Passing or disappearing with time; transitory.
°Remaining for only a brief time.
SO, this blog is basically all those thoughts you have in passing, when you're only thinking about it for a little bit, but you wish you could remember what is was you were thinking about?
Theses so called transient thoughts may not be how you really feel, or what you believe but it's what you were thinking at the time, they may be thoughts that aren't fully formed, or thought out well, but you can't help but have them? So, I decided I wanted to blog these thoughts so I know what it was i was thinking of long after I forget what I was thinking about.
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°Passing or disappearing with time; transitory.
°Remaining for only a brief time.
SO, this blog is basically all those thoughts you have in passing, when you're only thinking about it for a little bit, but you wish you could remember what is was you were thinking about?
Theses so called transient thoughts may not be how you really feel, or what you believe but it's what you were thinking at the time, they may be thoughts that aren't fully formed, or thought out well, but you can't help but have them? So, I decided I wanted to blog these thoughts so I know what it was i was thinking of long after I forget what I was thinking about.
You stay classer bloggers
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